How To: Die On Camera

I'm going to curse. And you're gonna suck it up and deal with it cause I am in a fvcking shitty mood.

Chapter 1


by: Apathy_
I've never really given much thought to how the rest of my life will go. I've never really thought about what kind of job I'll have or will I have a family or where I'll live. I just never thought I'd have to.
I guess that's what happens when you never feel like you're gonna be here for much longer.
This is a project. How to die on camera. It's dealing with any suicidal feeling anyone has had, and I mean anyone. And I need you guys to help me.
Message me, describing a time when you've felt suicidal or depressed, or just sad. Tell me if you want your name in it, or if you want it to be annonymous. Just spill your guts out, and tell me exactly how you feel. It'll be put into a chapter, and then I'll be writing under it.
I know what it feels like. I know what it's like to want to die. People say "Oh, why would you want that, you're so young, it'll get better!" but the reality is, we won't listen to that. I've only lived a fraction of my life, a tiny fraction. But the fact is, this is all I've ever felt like, so it's hard to imagine my life being any different.
I expect it's the same for most people. This is all you've felt, and you don't know what anything else feels like, so you don't know how anything could feel better.
I'm not going to tell you that it'll all get better in time and you'll recover and everything will be fairies and rainbows and fvcking sparkly unicorns prancing around fvcking magical princess land shitting rainbow candy. Obviously, that's never going to fvcking happen, so if anyone tells you that I give you permission to go completely fvcking shitballs crazy at them, because I know I would. But just because it's never going to be that good doesn't mean it's never going to e any good at all.
Talk. That's all I want you to do. Talk to me. Help me. Because I think, no matter how much we deny it, we all need a bit of fvcking help.


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